But I still my Ken. Miss him like there is a part of my body missing. The bed that he's never slept in feels emptier without him there. I miss being able to just pick up the phone and talk to him, or text message him. I miss falling asleep next to him. I miss all the shit a newly married couple is supposed to be able to do with one another, but we can't, because we don't live anywhere near each other.
And things are up in the air again as far as future plans and when we might see each other again. He's talking about staying in SK when he gets out of the Army in August, and so that just adds so many new things to think about, like moving all my shit there, and all of his that's left, and getting work visas, and just how the hell am I gonna live in that country? So much to think about and no clear answers about what I even want.