Trouble with a capital "T" (dv8dragonfly) wrote in one_year,
Trouble with a capital "T"

Day 262

I'm really horrible about this. Really horrible. It's not that I don't care, or that it's not on my mind, it's just that since I do NOTHING, I feel like I have nothing to write about. Which is silly. Plenty of people write about nothing. I guess I'm just not one of those people.

Ken and I went through some serious trouble back in December. Like serious trouble. The kind that ends up with Kae and Ken not being Kae and Ken. Divorce was practically a given. And then somehow, somehow, we came back from that. I still am not sure just exactly how, but I am so glad. I can not see my future without Ken. Even with him gone, when it should be easy to picture life going on the way it does now... I don't. Past June, it's all about me and Ken again.

I have no idea what will happen to us. All our plans are back up in the air. All I know is that as long as they still include him, I'll be fine.

I've been helping my sister plan her wedding. It's kind of odd, since I never did any of this stuff for my own. Ken and I got married so quick, with no guest list, no chapel, no priest... But I loved our wedding. It had most of the people that I cared about there. It had one of my dearest friends officiating - who needs a priest since neither of us is that religious? It had the beautiful day, with the right temperature, and all the elements at hand. And it had my love, being joined to me for life. That's all I needed.

I miss talking to Ken every day, still. But I still count myself lucky that I have the contact I have. I mean, Korea is not such a bad place for him to be. At least I can email him and know he'll get it just about every day. I can catch him on AIM and talk to him if it's the right time of day. And I know that he's pretty safe there.

I just wish it was another hundred or so days from now, so he could be coming home.
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